Saturday, December 22, 2012

Possession

This is the dog I love and the son I love.  I do not feel that I own or possess either one, but there is something about men and ownership and possession that baffles me...

Examples: this morning I was running up the road, and a man with a big dog on a thick leash had crossed in front of me, and as he stood on the grass of a neighbor's house, his dog on that thick leash was standing in the road, the leash blocking my path.  I slowed down and gently moved the dog closer to the curb because the man did NOTHING to pull him in, forcing me into the middle of the road if I'd gone around the dog.  I continued with my run, clearly leaving behind me a problem.  The problem was speechless but then began to scream at the top of his lungs, "Don't touch my fucking dog, BITCH."

I was reminded of running with my husband years ago when I tripped when a dog ran in front of me; I was down on the ground, gravel ground into my knees, elbows and legs.  I looked up to see my husband, running after the man with the dog instead of tending to his wife who was bleeding and down on the ground!  HE might as well have yelled, "Don't touch my bitch, DOG!"

Men...

Wednesday, December 19, 2012

Christmas Sunshine

Morning glistens through my windows in the corner of my house where my book tree sits dormant, waiting for the dark to descend when I turn on its lights.  The promise of sunshine today makes me gleeful.  It is the day I will take presents for the children at the Jane Addams women's shelter, and I will give the little girl her baby doll that I promised her two weeks ago.  It is also a day when I will have dinner with both of my children, a time when I can hold them close and remind them to love each other always and always.  Also, it is a time for bubbly champagne and a time for laughter because the two of them are unrestrainedly hilarious.

Mostly it is a day for rushing around but feeling calm in my soul and serenity in my heart because I do not feel that I am hurting or unkind to anyone, probably because I do not feel threatened or hurt or victimized by other people.  Maybe it's being unmarried. Whatever it is, I accept my solitude, wrap myself in it when I can but share myself whenever I have the opportunity.